for June 1, 2014
I’m trying to apologize, but I don’t know where to begin.
I’m scared if I try to feel the guilt I’ll end up caving in.
Just know that I’m truly sorry for any pain I’ve caused.
I didn’t mean to keep you out behind theses sky high walls.
The barriers I’ve built are not because of you,
It’s because of my past and the pain that as a child I went through.
I know that’s not your fault and you shouldn’t have to pay,
You deserve someone to love you and treat you the right way.
Make no mistake I love you, I just truly don’t know how,
Know I was not lying when I wrote and said my vows.
I want to give what you need and be everything you crave,
I’m scared to show my feelings but for you I must be brave.
Just teach me how to love you, it’s all I want to do,
I know I will try my best and to you I will stay true.
I know I’ve never loved another even close to this before,
I just don’t know how to show it but it’s coming from the core.
I can give you all of me you have my heart and soul,
Without you here I don’t exist, without you I’m not whole.
I will learn to love you better each and every day,
Be patient with me as I try our love will lead the way.