This world is a hologram of our thought thoughts brought to reality by our perception. Not a single thing is real, yet the physical world has a hold on our emotions. When it’s not what you want simply change your mind and your reality will change as well.
As I stare through broken glass
I’m hoping this feeling will pass
I don’t know what I’m trying to find
Trying anything that comes to mind
I feel like I’m going under
The silence is loud like thunder
With everything I’m going through
My only saving grace is you.
I just got around to doing last weeks writing prompt and this is what my list ended up becoming…
For my son:
The way your hair fros out…beautiful imperfections
The way you smile then pout…beautiful imperfections
Your puffy eyes in the morning…beautiful imperfections
The way you take off without warning…beautiful imperfections
You learning to talk…beautiful imperfections
The way you stumble then fall… beautiful imperfections
When you want something you whine…beautiful imperfections
The fact that your mine…a beautiful perfection
for June 1, 2014
I’m trying to apologize, but I don’t know where to begin.
I’m scared if I try to feel the guilt I’ll end up caving in.
Just know that I’m truly sorry for any pain I’ve caused.
I didn’t mean to keep you out behind theses sky high walls.
The barriers I’ve built are not because of you,
It’s because of my past and the pain that as a child I went through.
I know that’s not your fault and you shouldn’t have to pay,
You deserve someone to love you and treat you the right way.
Make no mistake I love you, I just truly don’t know how,
Know I was not lying when I wrote and said my vows.
I want to give what you need and be everything you crave,
I’m scared to show my feelings but for you I must be brave.
Just teach me how to love you, it’s all I want to do,
I know I will try my best and to you I will stay true.
I know I’ve never loved another even close to this before,
I just don’t know how to show it but it’s coming from the core.
I can give you all of me you have my heart and soul,
Without you here I don’t exist, without you I’m not whole.
I will learn to love you better each and every day,
Be patient with me as I try our love will lead the way.
As all of the feelings come to the surface, she is reluctant to say anything. The emotion began to affect her physically. Her heart raced, her palms were sweaty, she couldn’t breathe and she began to shake. What purpose did this serve? The panic was overwhelming. She kept her feelings bottled in. They ate away at her heart like rust on metal.
Subtly Degrading July 2, 2013
Subtly degrading, be careful with your words the actions that stem from them and the feelings that you hurt.
Subtly degrading, tearing me down I do so loudly, you don’t make a sound.
Subtly degrading, easily spoken lies, but now all of a sudden restrictions don’t apply… to you.
Subtly degrading, not the same around others, you use your charm to gain acceptance, what are you trying to cover?
Subtly degrading, looking past me as I cry. While my heart’s been broken and you’re the reason why.
Subtly degrading, not caring who you hurt. Always doing for others with a “for me” smirk.
Subtly degrading, you know not what you do, how controlling your silence is, but I know the real you.